Hi all: Its Friday afternoon...every day I get up around 6am and leave for work by 7. It's a 1.5 commute by subway. I leave early to get a seat. Something happened this morning, not sure what it is...I'm in terrible pain physically and getting mentally foggier by the day. This year I was promoted into an intensely stressful job because of restructuring, requiring me to do work I have no interest or training in (webmastering?!?)buried my mother and filed for divorce. I've fit these personal issues into my 50 hour work week with no time off. This morning, I got up, got dressed, got on train, got to office and after an hour, packed up and told boss I'm sick and went home. I have never done anything irresponsible at work like this. I cannot spend much more time either with the pace or current job I have, its that exhausting mentally and physically. My bosses are so nasty I doubt anything except the current schedule will be acccetpable to them. I asked my PC doc for an accomodation letter last week and I'm still waiting for it to arrive. I even drafted it for him, but nurse said she would mail it. My annual SSI report says if I am disabled I would receive over 1200 monthly and this doesnt take into account my new salary. I am used to living at a poverty level and willing to leave NY to someplace more affordable. I am considering having one of my docs help me with disability and filing for SSDI once the 6 month period (we get full pay from employer) is over. May I ask your ideas or suggestions, comments about what the heck happened this morning, what the step should be...I feel so burned out and have never felt this way. Its not even depression, its total numbness.