I am going through some rough times right now. I have had fibromyalgia since I was 18/and am 46 yrs old now. Basically, I have accepted it, and learned to live with it,at least to the best of my ability.But, Lately, I just feel like no-one understands me. I try so hard to be positive and stay in a good mood and do as much as possible,but I haven't been able to do that for about a month now. I would actually like to lock my doors, not go to work,answer my phone or deal with anything or anyone. That is very sad to me, but I think I am just tired! Tired of people expecting too much from me, even though they know what I am going through. I know they cannot truly understand, because they have no idea, besides what I have told them, how it really feels. That is why I say, only you can help me. I just don't know what to do anymore. I have been dating a man since May 28th, and he was wonderful to me at first. As the months have gone by, he is expecting to much from me, and doesn't seem to have any compassion anymore.I Don't want pity! that's for sure. I just need him to understand that sometimes I cannot force myself to pretend I am not in pain. That's usually how I deal with it, but lately I don't have the strength or the energy. He said he loves me with all his heart but he actually said to me that he is young,(only 3 years younger than me) and he feels like he deserves to have someone healthy. He complains all the time,about his back hurting him and does less than I do.I had him read the letters on here, so maybe he could better understand exactly what I am dealing with.He read them and said he understands now, and he will try not to upset me with rude words or actions, but really nothing has changed. My boyfriend, family, friends and co-workers are all expecting too much and making me feel like giving in and admitting I have fibro and can't keep up the fasad/and just living my life alone, then no-one would have to deal with me or try to understand anymore. Even though that is not truly what I want, I just don't know what to do , how to act or how to get past this anymore. I am usually a positive person, who is thankful for what I have in life, and try my best not to let fibro win, but I'm wondering if it has finally gotten the best of me? Please help!