I have just returned from a three-hour trip, each way, to Methodist Hospital in Houston. I saw a neurologist and a brain surgeon and was treated grandly and with great compassion. However I must return again tomorrow and next Wednesday for further test. After that I will need about 25 treatments to the brain on a daily basis for my non-malignant tumor. The surgeon says it must be stopped, or I will lose hearing in one ear and might have facial paralysis that is disfiguring. The problem is that this will mean renting a room or apartment and living in Houston in the hottest part of the year. My anxiety is about my mental conditon. I am severely fatigued and handling this could be traumatic. I do not relish living alone in a big city in a small room when I am ill. My family and friends can help a little, but they have their own problems, some worse than mine. Bright sun and heat are a major psychological problem for me and I have a long history of depression. On the good side Cymbalta and Lyrica have helped a bit with the pain and fatigue, but the improvement is small. I know there is not solution for all this but any support is welcome. I am no longer even semi-tough. I am feeling like a lonesome cowboy.