I have sank into another depression pit again...not sure why, just know that I feel so miserable. Im angry, dont know why, Im sad, dont know why, Im snapping at everyone around me, dont know why. Basically, Im in a very very very DARK PLACE....alone and isolated....and well, DONT KNOW WHY. I started my new job today. It went well. So why am I so anxious??? DONT KNOW WHY. Why do I feel empty and sad? DONT KNOW WHY.. The only thing I do know is that when I am like this I dont want to be aorund my kids or hubby or anyone...I want to be left alone. Unfortunately thats not feasible. I also know that the fibro pain is back full blown, I cant sleep a wink, I feel like this horrible blobbish Monster again and cant even stand to see myself in a mirror. My gutt hurts ALL THE TIME, despite the meds. I just need a prayer. Please help. I know so many of you out there have troubles far worse than mine but I need help. I cried out to God yesterday during church service. How selfish of me right? on Easter SUnday on a day I am suppose to be joyful....I was exhausted, crappy, snappy, in pain and just wanted to climb back into bed. Days like these I feel like a pithetic example of a human being.....even worse as a Christian. Shame on me.