I have been in so much pain for so long now. Went to my parents for Christmas. Was so embarassed. Everytime I sat down and then had to get up I had a hard time straightening up my back. Look like I am falling apart. I never talk about my fm with family, they are not support at all so why talk about it. I hated that my pain was that obvious. No one asked if I was ok, just ignored me as usual. Sleep is very difficult. Pain in my ribs,back,neck and shoulders keep me from getting comfortable. Christmas eve I cried out a few times cause of pain, it was tough. I want to exercise and do so much. My house is a mess. Floors need to be mopped so bad.But the pain. On top of that I am having trouble with my stomach. Gastroparesis, heital hernia and something else, waiting on biopsy from endoscopy. So depressing. I am not on any anti depressant anymore cause of cost and side effects. No xanax or anything to help take the edge off. Sorry for complaining so much, just feel so down today. SO tired of pain!