I went off all my pain meds back in November. I had been on them a long time, & the dosages had gotten pretty high. I realized that in addition to everything else, the meds were making me sick & not actually helping anymore. So I went cold turkey & felt like I was gonna FREAKIN DIE for about 3 weeks. I didn't tell anybody what I was doing until the worst of it was over. But now my pain is getting really bad again. I mean REALLY bad. (I just realized that for the first time in my life, I'm talking to people who know what "really bad pain" actually means!!! Cool!!!) Anyway... I'm lucky enough to have a doc who will rx pain meds when I need them. Now I need them again, but I don't want to get back on them. I know I can't just grit my teeth & gut it out much longer. I know it's not logical, but telling Doc I need pain meds again, makes me feel like I've failed at something... I'm not even sure what it is I've failed at. That's just how it feels. Anybody else ever feel like this?