I am not who I used to be, ever since I "got" Fibro. I still manage to do everything I need to do (take care of my 4 kids, work FT, run a household, ect...) but it is REALLY tough for me. And some days I am just full of anger because I am in so much pain. I tend to take out my frustrations on DH, my children, my mother, ect... And I don't want to do that. When I am feeling really good (which is rare anymore, it seems) I am very pleasant to be around. But when the pain sets in, sometimes I would rather just be alone. People don't understand why I get so moody, and then they make me feel worse by telling me I have an "attitude problem" or I have "anger issues" - they say things to me that really hurt my feelings and make me so sad. DH and I have been arguing a lot lately (lots of problems with finances right now). He always gets so upset with me, and cannot understand why I get quiet or "push him away". He'll tell me that he thinks I hate him, and ask me why we are even together since he feels I can't stand to be around him. That is not the case, of course. But if I am not feeling well, I just get very frustrated, irritable, and angry. I feel like this is starting to affect my marriage and my family life, and it really worries me. How do I tell my husband that I don't want him hugging me or touching me because I am in pain? He doesn't understand that....he thinks it's about him. And I feel awful too sometimes about how I am as a mother. I get short with my children, and I know if I wasn't in so much pain, the things they do (fighting, screaming, messing up the house, ect) wouldn't bother me as much, and I wouldn't yell at them like I do. DH told me last night that I am already ruining Christmas because we got into an argument when we were looking for a Christmas tree. I yelled at him about something stupid because I was freezing cold, and within 5 minutes of being outside, I felt my muscles start to spasm, and I got a severe headache, and my neck locked up and I just got frustrated. He told me I was ruining Christmas because my daughter was crying, and I think she began to cry because we were fighting. Can anyone else relate to this? Any suggestions on how I deal with my moods when I am not feeling well so it doesn't affect my family?