My church says you can't just know who God is, you have to have a personal relationship with Him. I accepted Christ as my Savior when I was 12 years old but over the years I would wander away, then come back, then wander away, you get the picture. For the last seven months I've been faithfully going to church regularly, reading His Word daily (for hours at a time), praying morning, night and several times throughout the day, watching only religious programs and listening to religious radio. My problem? I have so much doubt.... I think maybe God knocked too many times and now he's denying me. I don't know that if God raptured His Church today He'd take me Home. I am terribly depressed and I feel that no one likes me, or that I don't fit in anywhere or with anyone.... but God should love me, shouldn't He? Why can't I feel it? Why can't I have that personal relationship? Is it my depression causing my doubt? I believe that God is my Lord and Savior and that He gave His Son Jesus so that we would be forgiven of our sins. I know that I have to have faith....but the doubts keep popping into my head. Can some one give me some insight to my problem?