I'm feeling so isolated. I live alone and I can't join in very much. Nothing I try is getting off the ground. I've been studying on a music correspondence course - I would like to earn money through writing music. I've already written some successfully but I need the course now to help me to learn the business, but I can't concentrate most of the time, so it gets depressing and frustrating not being able to get on with my life. I don't want to make a meal of what I'm sure you all know about. The hardest part for me is being so isolated. Everyone's getting on with their lives except for me even though I am trying so hard. I can't get hardly any support. I don't want to sound childish saying this but I feel so left out by my family and friends. I hardly ever see anyone. I sometimes wonder if I've done anything but I can't think of anything too bad. I'm also worried that my tutors won't allow me to carry on with my course as I've hardly done any work. I'm writing them a letter, but I'm scared it's too late and they won't understand. It's been very hard for a very long time, and I don't want to go insane! Although some things are getting better, like finding a course, and the support from people here, I seem to be getting more marginalised however hard I try. Continuing to pray for you. love Sarah.