I'm haven't been to a doctor but I know I'm depressed. It takes all my energy to get out of bed and even smile. I have two kids that I can't play with because I think they see me as weak. I have a husband who just doesn't understand why I can't be happy. I don't know what to do. I am so alone. I have not a friend in the world. I try to talk to people but no one tries to establish any type of relationship with me. I feel as if I'm in a deep dark hole and no one can get me out. I feel as if I should tell my husband to leave me and take the kids because I am of no use to them like this. I feel alone and that no one understands what I am going through. How can I fix myself to be normal again?