I have posted so many times about the fact my husband is FORCING me to move to an area I absolutely hate because he has this great, high-paying new job that supposedly is a "once in a lifetime opportunity" that will "change our whole opportunity to achieve our goals in life". Yeah, if it doesn't kill me first, and sadly, I am saying this quite literally the way things are heading (and NO, it is nothing about the "S" word whatsoever)! I was dx'd with CFS about 6 months ago after having worsening health problems over the past several years. BTW, I am "only" 36. I am to the point where I cannot take stress in any way, shape or form...it manifests itself so strongly physically. My body is overloaded with toxins, I weigh a skeletal 92 or 93 lbs. now on a "good" day (and I'm 5'3"...should weigh around 100-105 per my historical "set point"). I barely eat (and feel sick when I do), and my sleep is tortured (and interrupted by a badly snoring husband who refuses to sleep anywhere else and a 4 y.o. child who keeps waking multiple times at night herself). I have no family whatsoever to turn to for help, quite seriously, nor do I really have friends who would take me in. My doctor keeps telling me I have GOT to cut my stress. Yes, so why is my husband MAKING me move???? BTW, he refuses to believe in or even research CFS, talk to my doctor, etc. But our daughter was dx'd with high-functioning autism 1 1/2 years ago, and he didn't believe that, either, nor go to ANY of her evals, therapy appts., etc. Just today, I was doing some not-too-intense gardening, as my husband is h*** bent on getting our house on the market in time for a Tues. broker preview/open house thing. The yard needs a fair amount of work, and that has always been my deal. I am so weak even this minimal amount of work (pulling some weeds, cleaning up some leaves, and planting 2 5-gal. plants) has me now shaking, exhausted, and so upset. I can't do this PLUS clean the whole house on Monday (my realtor couldn't arrange for a cleaner in time, as hubby just came up with this idea the other night) PLUS care for my kid PLUS do the loads of laundry (she is peeing in her pants at least once every single day and has been for the past 4 mo. no matter what we do) PLUS stay on top of the dishes and of course give my husband the attention he so needs. He is constantly telling me how I am not meeting his needs, how I don't cook for him, how he is so tired of me being sick...it goes on and on. It's awful! I just want to stay in this house for awhile and have the peace and quiet I need so I can stop this downhill slide in my health before things really get bad and I REALLY get sick. There is no way my body can handle just the physical upheaval of moving at this point (finding my way around, even, something I've historically been good at, is enough to put me over the edge). Not to mention the deep emotions, esp. the fact I am SO unhappy about where we are moving and I feel my husband will do NOTHING to acknowledge it. He says I liked it the first time I went up there. Yeah, it seemed nice, on a Sun. afternoon with minimal traffic and being shown all these beautiful homes in beautiful open land and meeting the nicest people. He also told me later on that my opinion "didn't matter" as I "could not think rationally" about the decision, when I started to really have second thoughts. Since then, I've learned more about real estate and don't know if even our ample budget will be enough, I have met truly horrible people, and after the 4 HOUR 115 mi. commute back from our rental house the other week (I went up there to drop off the lease), I just had it. I am even to the point where I called a lawyer and asked about filing for divorce (something I swore I'd never, ever do 'cause of our daughter), and I have told my husband this. He says divorce won't let me keep our house, because he will demand his half and I obviously can't pay that out, nor will I even be able to pay the mortgage as I haven't worked since I got pregnant (and promptly got very sick) with our daughter. He even says he will fight tooth and nail for custody for her, as I am such the incompetent mom and so emotionally unstable. I feel completely trapped! I live in CA, and if anyone knows anything about anywhere I can go for help, or you know of a good divorce lawyer in O.C., please tell me! There have been zero instances of physical abuse (although much emotional), so it'll be a "he said/she said" thing, which I'm scared of because of all the ramifications of CFS and all the stress I've been under. If I had ANY idea how this would've turned out, I would have never, EVER gotten married to this man, and looking back, I should not have written off all the "pre-wedding jitters" I experienced. But now I also have a beautiful 4 y.o. daughter, and I need to protect her interests, too. Thanks to anyone who can help me in any way. I honestly don't know where to turn with all of this, and I am so sick.