I have only today just found this site and you all sound such wonderful people, my thoughts and prayers are with you all. I have had CFS and Dystonia for 15 years. I have been so ill but always remained positive and helped many people through letters, phone calls and poetry. I've had 14 published which I am so proud of. I was so desperate to try to move my life on that I decided to go ahead with a hysterectomy in October. I really thought this was going to be the answer to my prayers as I believed that all my symptoms were hormone-related. However I ended up in hospital for three weeks with a severe reaction to the epidural, bladder infections and infected blood clot. At this time I don't feel any different to what I did before undergoing the op which is so disappointing. Plus all the cfs and dystonia symptoms have exacerbated. However, if I try to do anything within a few hours I feel this awful sadness comes over me which I can only describe as being in the depths of despair and I just cannot stop crying. It is so embarrasing as I just cannot stop and the tears flow and flow. But the stupid thing is that I don't feel sad. I can cope with everything else but these awful feelings. I am already on a very low dose of seroxat and can't tolerate anymore due to side-effects. Its not a subject I can discuss with family as nobody really understands as I am always so in control and have coped with everything in the past. I am sure my son thinks I am indestructable! Is there anyone on here who ever feels like this? Or is it just the post-op blues? Wishing you all a very happy and healthy new year. Thank you all for your help. I feel like I have been guided here today.