It seems as though our immediate family has caught the hospitalization epidemic. Sorry to you wonderful folks out there who haven't heard from me in a while. I was hospitalized briefly and then my son recently. He went into a major seizure, was unconscious for quite some time, then was spitting up blood, then catatonic. I honestly thought he was going to die. I found out how horribly I react under life and death situations--I panicked but at least had the presence of mind to call 911 and render what care I could manage. He's an addict. How much of this recent episode was due to that or to an underlying pre-seizure state he was diagnosed with yrs. ago is anyone's guess. I've called for an ambulance for him more times than I can count....overdoses, attempted suicide, horifically rapid heart rate....you name it. The stealing, lying, ruining of property has really gotten to me. I've asked him to stay at a Christian emergency shelter to which he's agreed for only a couple of nights, but then he wants to either move in with a friend or relative a couple of hundred miles from here. I feel that he should ideally be in a Christian rehab facility and face up to and deal w. his problems rather than put someone else in that not-so-wonderful place of codependency where I've been. However, he's an adult. As I've shared with you folks before, part of my family is deceased (and with the Lord, thankfully!!!), but the other half is far away, unsupportive in this situation, and are unsaved. Am I doing the right thing by having him leave, or is this going to be something I regret for the rest of my life? Tough love doesn't always work....the down side most people don't hear about is the dual dx people (serious depression/suicidal), like my son, who simply give up because they mistakenly interpret tough love as no love and end up killing themselves. He's my only child. I'm sorry to have to burden anyone with a humongous (sp?) prayer request like this. Where is the Lord? I've cried out to Him so many times to intervene. Please pray for my son to have a deep, dedicated desire to recover and rededicate his life to Christ and to change, to make wise decisions and to somehow stay away from drugs long enough to truly recover. I'm also hoping against hope perhaps that he and I once again in the future enjoy the truly close mother-son relationship we once had. Thank you so very, very much for taking the time to read this and for your much-coveted prayers. You are a wonderful group of people. I mean that. I pray for your needs, and you are all in my thoughts and prayers even though you don't hear from me on a regular basis (my health and son's situation doesn't always allow as much of that as I'd wish). God's richest blessings on you all! Hugs, love, and prayers to you all.