I was in a car accident last week. Going to physical therapy. Having problems once again with my hip, leg pain, along with bladder problems. Docs think its a compressed nerve. Giving the PT a try for three weeks. If no improvement, then haveing the MRI done. Since the accident, I have had alot of knee pain, along with all the pain that goes with a whiplash injury. I have been doing so well the last two months. Since starting the low carb diet. Have the depression under control. Losing weight, better self esteem. Learning from experiences like with my sister and I being estranged. I learned to control anger better, and forgive. I learned I have come a long way with being honest and real. I am also going back to school, in September. I am doing what I wanted to do all along. Graphic design. So doing a 1 year program. Its what makes me happy Also, before the accident, I was going to start volunteering a couple days a week. But not now, with the new injuries. It would of helped with my resume, and holding some sort of work for a period of time, along with a letter of recommendation. Then also, not letting myself be so isolated from others. I was looking so forward to it. So, prayer to see the lesson in it all, to grow from this car accident. To accept it and learn from it. To see the purpose of it all. I know, the real lesson may not be revealed until a later time. Prayer to not be so dissapointed. I feel dissapointed because when I try and get my life together, set goals, and try to do these things... things like this happen, with injuries, or health problems. I feel confused at times with it all. I figured out too, I sometimes try and force life to happen, control it to my desires and wants. When things don't go along like I want and plan. I become depressed, dissapointed, and disgusted. When all along I should let it happen naturally, know what I mean? Hard to explain, tryed to.