Hi everybody....it's been a while since I been on the site. I have read the message board time to time to make sure all of you are doing okay, but now I have a question and have been wanted to ask you for a while, but kinda didn't know how. My Ph.D. doc said to just come out and ask because we all are in the same boat with this FM and CFS. Sex is painful for me and has been since I found out I have FM. My husband thinks it is him and I try to explain the pain I feel during sex and tell him it has nothing to do with him. I love him very much....we will be married 10 years next July, but I see where my FM/chronic pain is causing problems in our marriage. I don't want another failed marriage, but I am losing hope. The night before Thanksgiving I was in so much pain from getting things ready for the dinner for the next day and when we went to bed I cried and told him I couldn't live this way anymore. I needed a hug from him and words like "honey it will be okay", but he just laid there and said don't give up. He at times also makes me feel like my illness is a burden because we are down to one income and with my other illnesses, my medication bill every three months runs well over $450.00. Now that 2003 is almost here....our health insurance is going up, including medication and copay's. The only news I have gotten from my lawyer about my SDI is it was approved in Aug. BUT, my case was sent to the San Francisco for review because someone wants to make sure that the Fresno office did a good job on my case or maybe made the right choice because it can be over turned and I don't know where to go from here. I was told to write to Bill Thomas here in Ca. I guess he has something do with the Congress or he represents Ca. I am not sure. Anyone from Ca. has any idea? I have been fighting for it for two years now. I will stop now and I hope everyone has a nice Christmas. My husband is driving me to Texas so I can spend it with my granddaughter. Hugs to all...Donna P.S. Are there any of you who has a child in the Army, etc. who might be getting ready to go to war? I have only one child, a son in the Army and I am having a hard time understanding why they would send him (being a only child)in to fight. He is in the Infantry Division.