Hey folks, I've been working on my project...and that has pushed me into a flare...I was feeling so positive for a few weeks, and really thought, this time I have accepted this illness, and it knocked me on my butt again! I think the hardest piece is that again I attempeted to do something I had put away and let go of (making a complex costume for my son)...and the DD puts my limitations in my face, again...It is like I am mourning my old life again. Then there is the mood shift...I was positve and calm, and now I feel like I did before...unsure, afraid, don't know who to trust, because I can't trust my own body, it has let me down again...Depression...feeling alone, feeling trapped by my limitations, my overiding emotions, my fears. So, I come here to you all for a reality check...I KNOW that this disease can create all that I am feeling right now, even if my emotions would have me believe that I am the only one here who has felt this...I know intellectually this is not the case, I have read your stories and posts. So I ask you kindly to let me know that I am not alone today, that you care, and understand what I am feeling right now. Thank you.