I spent from christmas until last week in one big flare. Non stop pain, tiredness, weakness, everything. Then last week, something happended. The pain lifted and i felt full of energy! I took it easy, but was able to do some of the things i enjoy doing. Now here i am back into the flare, it started yesterday morning and it would appear it's not letting up. I feel defeated, just when i was feeling human again BAM! it all comes flooding back. I'm not sure i want a remission again. they bring hope, only to have it squashed. Anyone else feel this way?