I totally!!!!! know where you're coming from... I've been crying most of day. Guess you could call it feeling sorry for myself. But you know what, I feel like I deserve to do it. Guess it also means that the Zoloft is not working as well as when I started about 5 or so months ago. With the Zoloft I didn't cry or really feel much of anything which I think was better than this. Sorry, but, I'm having a lot of problems right now. I think everything is becoming a reality of this DD now. I had to sell my condo, the first place I've ever owned and was MINE. I'm moving next Sat. in with my sis and her husband. That'll be ok. I'm gonna try to stay with them for a year so I can pay off my car and have NO bills then I want to move to Las Vegas. Need a change of scenery and .... I'm trying my damnest to be positive but I'm kind of losing it right now. Feel totally!!!!!!!!!!!! alone in this. Don't want to bother people with this crap. Pretty much wondering why the hell I'm here anymore. No life. Feel like I'm just too young (48) to be in this bad of shape. Look fine but am hurting all the time now, can't walk good for longer than 5 minutes. I'M JUST PLAIN TIRED AND EMPTY INSIDE NOW. NO ONE TO TURN TO. EVEN THE DR. SAID I AM TOO YOUNG TO BE DISABLED SO HE ONLY GIVES ME DISABILITY FOR 2 MOS. AT A TIME AND WOULD ONLY GIVE ME A DISABILITY PLAQUARD FOR 3 MONTHS. JUST WONDER WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN OR GO NEXT.... Sorry for the downer letter but had to get it out. Thanks to everyone......Betty in Valencia, CA.