Today was a scary day. For no reason, I started my workday with nothing by sad music. As the day progressed my body ached more and more, a headache developed and suddenly I got the shakes, started stuttering and couldn't stop my hands from shaking. I've never had anything like that happen before so, of course, I got scared and started crying. I don't know what it was that caused all this, my guess would be stress though. My husband is in the military and is once again deployed, I'm living in a state where I know not a sole except for my co-workers, my marriage has been on the rocks for a while - now thanks to a marathon research binge the last few days, I realize, I probably don't hate my husband, I probably just resent the fact that he doesn't understand what I'm going through. I think that was what pushed me over the edge today, but I'm happy to say, I left work early since I couldn't cope, met up with a friend, and after him holding my hand and hugging me for a while, I actually felt better. I think maybe human touch was better then any meds could have possibly been. Today is the first day that I've been on these boards and I have to say thank you to all that have posted. I've felt so alone with all this and you all have made me realize that I am not, that many many others feel the same way. Thank you again all, I think now I might be better able to live with this.