Have you ever been sure you are going to die? Well I was so ready for it to happen yesterday. For the last week I have been in a huge flare. Aside from my normal horrible pain I was having strange symptoms. My feet had swelled so much I couldn't walk. By last night they were both actually round and my poor toes where so big I thought the skin was going to burst. I was nauseated and having chills and sweats. I was so sick that I couldn't get up to go to the ER. I knew I was dehydrated even though I drank 3 leiters of water. The one time I did try to get up I ended up falling and of course the coffee table broke my fall and broke in half. It took me 20 min before Icould get up off the floor. Then this moring I woke up after falling asleep out of pure exhaustion totally covered in sweat. And my feet were back to normal my stomach was fine and I was doing much better. What was that all about? I hate being so out of control. I can't go to the Dr and tell them all my symptoms because they totally tune out after the first 2. And now after all of this my mom noticed a huge lump on my arm that isn't muscle and is so hard. I am sorry if I am rambling but I am tired of all of this!