I just read the thread "Going off Clonzapam, any pointers?". By reading the post, especially from Mikie, I realized that so much of my problems are from sensory overload. It is causing me many problems with my health and with my relationships. Noise, being around more than one person, certain lights, smells, and motion around me has become unbearable to me on top of all the other problems with CFS/FM. This is driving a wedge into my personal & family relationships. It is becoming severe. In my past life, I was known for my smile and my nickname with my son & husband was sweetie. Now it is probably *****. The only way I have found to control this is to completely separate me from everyone. I now have used our bonus room that is actually a nice bedroom (and very quite) to sleep in and am finding that I have to spend more and more time there to survive. To help understand the problem with the main section of my home is that it has a 24 feet ceiling and it does strange things with noise. If a cabinet door is closed it is very loud yet you have difficulty hearing what someone says. My husband just bought a new laptop for me because my old one was giving me lots of problems. I had worked & worked on the old computer to get the light and type to a point that it did not cause me any harm. The new computer is High Def and it has made me so sick. My eyes hurt, I get nauseous, & a headache. I've done everything I know to do but I haven't been able to change it enough to allow me to use it for very long. It has given me a headache trying to type this. My husband just sees me as not being grateful and unable to please. I do not know what to do. My family does not understand and it is causing me to become a hermit in my own home. Not only am I extremely irritable but I need contact with people & I can't stay in a room forever. Per post that I have read on the board, I had asked & gotten a prescription of Klonopin to go with the cocktail of other drugs that have finally helped me find sleep. I read where Mikie used it for sensory overload and the doctor gave me a prescription for .5 mg pills to take 3 during the day hours if needed and 1 to 2 at night with my other meds. I have been taking 1 of the pills in the afternoon when I feel like I can't stand myself any longer and 1 to 2 at night. I had decided last night after a heavy, unhealthy discussion with my DH (who thinks I just can't be pleased) I was going to take more of the med to see if it would help. Now I don't know what to do. My mind races with thoughts. I didn't know that was not normal. I've noticed lately that my husband will just ask me to rest my mind. It made me realize what I was doing. I am going from one subject to another about everything that we need to do(and I guess since I'm unable) he feels that I am talking to just him. I jump from subject to subject with everybody. My husband is general manager of a company and when he is home, there is always a very loud walkie talkie, pager & phone going off. To me it's so very irritating. I am on pins and needles. I know that it is part of his job although lots of the calls are just people wanting to chat. I've asked him to please go outside with these calls. The other persons voice is like on a loud speaker in our home and it is like rubbing your finger nails on chalk to me. I don't know how to handle all of this. I know he is supporting the me (mostly) but these things make me sick. It is the same with cigarette smoke. Although no one smokes in the house, it's on his clothes & hair. He does smoke in the Hummer with the window down when I am in there. I can truly see where he is becoming quite annoyed with all of this. Most people would not understand what is happening to my body, in fact I do do not understand. I can't go to a "loud" restaurant especially when there are loud, unruly childred. Having my own childred,spouses,girlfriends & parents over for a birthday is tramatic for me. This use to be a big (happpy) deal for us. My lab that worships me too much becomes unbearable my evening because of his needs to play. I love him so much and I don't know if I can continue to keep him if I stay this sensitive. This man loved me and I loved him very much but this DD is tearing apart my whole life and yes, his also. This is also a problem with all my family members. I need their help so much yet I have to keep stepping away to survive. Please help me deal with this. I just don't know what to do.