I am so afraid to ask my doctor because I have had such bad experiences with doctors in the past. I am so tired of suffering though!!! My doctor currently has me on Lyrica 300mg a day, Darvocet 100-650mmg 3x a day, seroquil 100mg at night for sleep, and zoloft 25mg for depression. The seroquil and zoloft are prescribed by my mental health dr. The rest are from my regular family dr. He has me scheduled to see a rhuemy in December but I am nervous about it cause the last rhuemy I saw asked me first thing if I was seeing a shrink cause FM is a mental disorder, needless to say I got up and walked out right then. I am struggling with asking him to go to pain management because I don't want him to think that I am just seeking drugs, but I am so sick of living with this pain. I am not working anymore so I won't hurt anyone by taking meds. I am only 34 and I cannot imagine living like this for the rest of my life. I am a Christian and that is the only thing besides my love for my family that keeps me from ending it when it is really bad. I would never kill myself but if God were to take me when I am in my worst pain, it would be a relief. I am just so tired! Even though I am sleeping the pain is wearing me down physically and emotionally. I need help but I am so afraid to ask for it. Any advice would be greatly appreciated. I so want relief, I just want to ask for it in the right way. I can tell you right now he won't go up on the Lyrica and he doesn't want to run a mercury test because he doesn't believe the fillings can cause it even though I have read studies on the internet that say it does. He said the rhuemy could run it, but he wouldn't. I just don't feel like he is aggressive enough. He is a family dr and a Christian and he is sympathetic but I think he thinks all I do is feel sorry for myself because the one time I've seen him and not his PA I broke down in tears and totally lost it. I go back to him on the 14th and I am so nervous about it. Help me please!!!!