I just need to vent a little. I've just gotten out of the hospital after a bladder infection went bad. Doctor treated me a month and it still progressed to kidney. So after a week in the hospital and a week at home, the infection is better, BUT I feel terrible. Fibro is awful, osteo in knees is horrible, my messed up heart beat is stressing me, hard to breathe, exhausted, weak, puny, and really mentally depressed! My thyroid messed up in the hospital and they put me on anti thyroid meds. Had blood work last week, they said it was fine now, get off them. Now I feel like my thyroid is broke period! What really has me down is I must return to work tomorrow or ask for a leave of absence. I don't feel as if I'm ready. I get up to dress and stir around and I get sweaty, weak, feel like I'm going to pass out. My back and stomach ache while standing. I just feel ill. Hubby said I can seek my disability. So where do I start in a nutshell? Call and get an appt with our SS office?? Try to keep working? Tell my boss I need a leave of absence or just give my notice? The STRESS of all this, this time of year is really exaggerating all my ailments. I feel as if I've let everyone down. My coworkers have worked extra for me and have been good to me being out this long. My family has waited on me hand and foot. Yet I still feel so isolated and alone and lost as to what my future holds now. I'm just scared.