I know this topic was probably brought up before, and I hate to sound repetitive, but lately my jealousy of other people has just been getting me down. I work in a hospital in a department with a lot of women. Since January, so many of these women have started weight programs such as weight watchers, exercise programs that they do together after work and so on. The programs are working for them and truly I am happy for them, so maybe I am not truly jealous, but envious of them. I have been asked by my co-worers to join in, what a laugh, I am so totally exhausted after work that I just sit in my car for minutes just to get the strenght to start up the car and drive home. Some of my co-workers are much younger than I am, I will be 44 and used to be able to go walking not right after work, but a few hours after, I could get the strenth to do it, not I just can't anymore. Some of the ladies are my age and a little older and they all seem to have such "perky" lives. They are always doing things with family and friends, they are sticking to their "programs" and I feel so left out. I do not have children and I rarely go out on dates, although people I do work with compliment me on my clothes, or say I look very nice that day, I just don't feel that way. Chronic pain, fatigue, weight problems from past medications from my FM has made me feel awful. I am trying to have some hope with a new supplement I will be trying soon for my pain, this is what I live for only, constantly trying to find something to help control my FM is just too exhausting most of the time and it just makes me feel sad. This January, I vowed to cut out sugar from my diet, it worked for about 6 weeks, then I fell off and just wanted some sweets which I know is bad for me in the long run. I just couldn't stick with it. So, these feelings of envy or jealousy can really eat me up and I know it sounds childish which I don't like as well. I was quiet today at work because I just couldn't get the energy up to talk about all the volunteer programs and "things" that people get into, especially in a hospital setting. I got in my car at the end of the day and just wanted to cry. I have been experiencing a typical flare up these past two weeks and I notice how much more sensitive I am during these times. Maybe this is a mid-life crisis for me, LOL, or just this nasty condition. I have to keep reminding myself that I work in medical records, NOT an easy job. It is mentally and physically exhausting, but I can feel a little proud of myself that I learned this job, although it was extremely tough for me and challenging. I had a very hard time learning it and went through some rough times in that department, so maybe I am just burned out from everything and then my jealousy and envy takes the best of me. I do have friends at work, but usually only from a distance, I cannot compete with their energy. Thank you all for letting me sound off and do you have any advice? Hugs to all, Chelz.