LadybugMandy and all others, I know just how you feel. You think maybe there is hope of finally feeling better, only to have the rug pulled out from under you again! I will be 46 years old on Friday, Dec. 12th and have been living with the "Fury of Fibromyalgia", since I was 18. I think the hardest thing about it, is the disappointment of not being able to be yourself, because of "always" having to pretend you are not in pain. Then there is the fact that no-one truly understands what you are going through!, unless of course they also have Fibro. I decided when I was finally diagnosed with Fibro, after many drug trials,feeling like a zombie,but still in pain, and physical therapy,with which the therapists had no clue what to do with me,to pain specialists whose office was filled with patients who could hardly hold their heads up,to support groups filled with people who had given up that I wasn't going to let Fibromyalgia win! I stopped taking all the medicine, and lived each day, doing what I was able to do, and waking up in horrible pain, only to start another day, doing my best to stay positive. One thing I have found extremely helpful,,, before you go to sleep, prop your head up with a wedge or pillows, and prop your legs under your knees. I discovered this helped by falling asleep on a loveseat one night and when I woke up in the morning my back wasn't hurting. Please everyone try it,,, you might have to work with it for a couple nights,,, to get the pillows just right,,, but you will be amazed what a difference it makes. I bought myself a temperpedic adjustable bed because of the difference it made in my quality of life, not waking up feeling like poison was surging through my back. Another thing I recently bought was a used hot tub. It relaxes my muscles more than anything ever has! So much so, that when I come in the house , I am in no pain, and usually fall asleep within about 15 minutes. I am now feeling like you though, because I returned from work today, and went out to turn up the heat and found that my deck is sinking. I really needed to get in it because I have been having a severe flare up and I can hardly even walk.Now , tomorrow, I am going to have to drain it, until I can get my deck reinforced or something which will be hard to do in the winter. Of course, no one is there to help me either to even get it drained, so I will struggle through, hardly able to walk until the hot tub is drained and winterized. So you see, we all "with Fibromyalgia",do understand what it is like to struggle with this horrible,horrible demon we seem to have strapped to our backs.We just all need to stick together and realize we are not alone and keep faith and hope that someday soon!, SOMEONE will find a way to end this misery for us! Try to keep your faith and get back your determination, as I will also try to find the strength to do! My heart is with you!!!!!!!