I am so upset with myself for being sick. This is the my fourth time canceling with my friends to go to a movie, how pathetic is that! I cant leave my house and do anything. I just lay here like a slug and feel sorry for myself. It is the little things I cant do that makes me so upset. In my mind I want to do stuff, but my body won't allow me. I havent had a good day in months, and I am surprised that i still have any friends at all. My one friend said to me " you cant keep doing this". I would give anything to feel a slight bit of what normal is.