I am not sure what is going on, but my FM is really flaring up this month, which is not unusual for Januray in Cleveland Ohio. I came into work late 3 times in the past 2 weeks, I am usually right on time (never early), but not late. Where I work, if you are just one minute late, you get points that can add up and be negative on your upcoming review. I am hurting more, am more forgetful and just plain miserable. This morning, I just wimpered trying to get my achy body out of bed. I have been having some gyno problems for which I have an appointment with the doctor in about 10 days. I also had to cancel my appointment with a new rheumy this past Thursday because I really felt like crap, which means I should have gone, but I just couldn't get up the energy. I have forgotton to pay a few bills. I live with my mother and I have to do all her bills as well as mine, and I think with the Christmas season, cold weather, flaring up, I have all but forgot to pay these bills, which I usually never do. When I get home from work (I work in a hospital, can be very stressful). I don't want to talk about anything with my mom, I don't want to listen to anything, I just want to get on the couch and literally just stare at the TV. Yesterday was the worst, I just cried, but I didn't cry for long................it took too much energy to do. I had to reschedule my doctor appointment. This particular rheumy I got from the "good doctor list", well, he was booked until middle summer time!!!! I couldn't believe it, I had to cancel because I just couldn't make it, then the receptionist told me he was in such high demand, that I couldn't see him unitl summer, I was speechless, he can't be that good, LOL. Anyway, I told her that I could come in at any time of the day, but to please help me out and try to get me in at least March? I did feel awful I had to cancel, I think the receptionist felt really bad for me and squeezed me in for March. She told me he is in high demand. Anyway, I will spend another weekend lounging around the house after working a 40 hour week, BUT, laundry has to get done, errands have to be done, I have to take my mom a few places, the house needs to get cleaned...............and I have to look and see what other "bills" I have not paid and get them paid. My bank account is a little low, like the rest of me. Just needed to vent a little. Hugs to all, Chelz.