Some of you may remember me. I work full-time (I resigned from the beyond high-stress job, didn't work for 6 months in 2010, then took another full-time job at 20% less than what I was making, I'm in grad school (almost done now), now I have a daughter in college and the youngest one will be in college soon. Anyway, I've been married for almost 3 years now. We are a blended family-we both brought older children who grew up together into the marriage. It's been an adjustment. My husband is very passive-after work he wants to pop in bed and fall asleep to the tv. I'm authoritative and hands-on-after work and my internship, I want to know why I'm the only one that's requiring grown kids to lead productive lives. My husband made alot of assumptions (i.e. my daughters wouldn't need any guidance because they are good girls; he would be free to work 2 jobs and his only job would be to help pay bills and he wouldn't have to be involved at home with the kids/young adults; that I'd keep being able to work and pay half of the bills or that we'd move close to the city we grew up in if I had to quit work-which would mean his family would either pop up unannounced, or he'd be caught up in his family's daily family drama,etc.). Recently, my illness has been progressing. I have more pain flare days, and EVERYDAY at work, I fight to stay awake. If I get caught up in a freeway backup on the way to work, I'm fighting to stay awake. My memory is shot-I forget even the simplest things now and I'm agitated most of the time. I really need a part-time job working 4-hour shifts, but in this economy, it's not happening. It's either nothing or full-time, because full-timers are expected to do the work of 5 people. I recently took a day off and after getting up early like I was at work (because I had alot of things to do at home), I literallly fell asleep and slept between 2pm-4pm. I didn't realize it until after it was over, but my body needs to take a 2-hour nap around that time. I'm really sensitive to side effects, so I'm afraid to take Provigil. I realize that Provigil may allow me to work full-time or period a little longer. It seems like the perfect work schedule would be working Mondays&Tuesdays-09:00am-01:00pm; Wednesdays-off; Thursdays & Fridays-09:00am--1:00pm. Of course, I'd have to make $40 an hour at only 16 hours per week.