Thank you everyone! Gosh...I've got tears in my eyes. I didn't know if anyone would even reply. I've felt desperate for so long and yes...as hard as it is for me to admit it, depressed. I do fight it and myself constantly. I think as one of you said I just need to accept my body, "BUT I DON"T WANT TOO" Boo-Hoo, cry, cry....I want to be NORMAL, HEALTHY, ENERGETIC, HAPPY. I can't tell you how much your reply's mean to me. Just to hear from others who know EXACTLY how I feel is awesome. It's embarassing when you don't want to leave the house or go shopping or even be around anyone except your own family. I think what I fear is the expectation from others. BTW: I definately do agree there has GOT to be some link between this syndrome and nurses! I have known SO many nurses who have developed fibro, CFS and Lupus. I have wondered if it may be due to the powdered latex gloves we are (or were) repeatly exposed too. Over the years I developed such severe allergies to the powder in the gloves with my eyes swelling shut, wheezing ect. that I can't even be around balloons! (unpowdered latex gloves don't bother me) Funny...something must be up because the hospitals in Calif. are required now to use ONLY non-powdered gloves because so many nurses became allergic. Hmmmm...wonder if that's worth investigating more! Ha...I don't even have the energy to do my dishes, like I could research that! Anyway...thank you all for your freindship and understanding, it's something I have been missing for a long time!! Susan/RN/Calif.