I am not surprised to see that most of us have had alot of trauma in our lives, whether it be abuse or anything else. My abuse stopped at age 13 but I started drinking to forget it. My safe place I called it. I am 43 and alcohol free for 12 years (with a bout of falling off 2 times) I am doing OK. With my counselors help, I am beginning to see what life is all about without the garbage. Again, thanks for your responses.