On Monday when I went to the Dr and was told I was 4-5 cm, DH got really nervous. He kept telling me we needed to get to the hospital right away. He was so nervous because he was working an hour away, and he was afraid I would go into labor while he was at work. On Tuesday (my official due date) I had some cramping all day, but no contractions or anything. It was also getting very difficult to walk. When he got home from work, he really started to make me a nervous wreck, since he was so nervous. We had to run to the store and he finally talked me into going to the hospital. I figured it was time anyway, even though nothing else was happening, and I didn't think I was in labor. The more nervous I got, the more pain I started having. My father-in-law rushed over to pick up my kids and I called my Dr. I was so bummed because my Dr wasn't on call - I talked to her partner, who I had never even met. So I knew there was a good chance my Dr (who I knew and loved) would not be there to deliver my baby. So I took a shower and we headed to the hospital. We had to go in through the ER since it was after hours, and they took us up to L&D. I got checked in around 10:30 and spent the next hour answering questions and stuff. After I got into my gown and they started my IV, I told DH I really wasn't ready to do this. LOL. The Dr came in (she was really nice and all, but I was so upset my Dr wasn't there.) They knew I wanted an epidural, so the Dr checked me and said I was still 5 cm - she said they would get me the epidural in about 30 mins...I had to wait until I had a full bag of IV fluid first. As we were sitting there, I remembered my other labors and births, and I started to get more nervous. I kept telling DH I didn't want to go through with it. Haha.... So the Dr came back about an hour later and broke my water. At that point, I was already 7 cm, and I started getting really strong contractions. I was terrified I would have another fast, painful labor like my last one, and I wouldn't have time for the epidural. DH kept telling me to page the nurse and tell them to hurry up, but I didn't want to bother them. I was so happy though, because when they broke the water, they said the fluid was clear. My last one had meconium, and I didn't want to go through that again either. They had to put me on a bedpan, because there was so much water pouring out, and I couldn't stand up or anything. I had to sit there and fill out TONS of paperwork for the epidural and the pain was getting more and more intense. I knew I was having strong contractions, but I didn't tell the nurse b/c I was afraid she'd tell me it was too late for the epi again. So FINALLY, the anesthesiologist came in. He just kept yacking away about the medication and what I was supposed to feel and blah, blah.....Since I was sitting up straight, I REALLY started to feel a LOT of pressure and pain, and just kept praying he would hurry up! He was busy putting tape all over my back, and he finally put the first needle in, which REALLY hurt and made me tense up bad. Something just didn't feel right to me - I have had 2 epidurals before, and I don't remember them feeling that way. My back was killing me, and the pain was shooting into my legs. It took him quite a long time to finish up......I was just so grateful it was finally done. They checked me again and I was 8 cm. I knew it would go fast after that. The fluid was still pouring out (which I felt) and it was really uncomfortable. Suddenly, I felt a REALLY strong contraction (which I knew I shouldn't have felt). Out of nowhere, nurses and Drs came running into the room. I knew something was wrong, but they were all trying to act like everything was ok. The anesthesiologist ran over and told me to get on my side and they put the oxygen mask on me. They were trying to get the baby's heartbeat back up....so I assumed something was wrong with the baby. The Dr asked me if I felt ok and if I felt like I was going to throw up. Then I heard them say the baby was ok, but they kept telling me to breathe into the mask and brought me a tray to throw up in. I suddenly felt REALLY sick and thought I was going to pass out. I couldn't breathe and my heart was racing. I glanced over at DH and he looked terrified. The anesthesiologist quickly put some medication in my IV. I had no idea what was going on. I guess at that point, my blood pressure had dropped to 50/30 and the baby's heartbeat had dropped to 60 bpm. I started shaking uncontrollably. They explained that I had a reaction to the epidural, and they had to spend the next hour trying to get my blood pressure back up. I was really freaking out, but I was more concerned about the baby...they explained the baby was probably lying on the cord, and the blood supply was cut off, and the baby didn't handle that strong contraction very well. Thankfully, I was ok after about an hour, but my contractions had stopped completely. So they decided to start Pitocin. I was able to feel the contractions at that point, and I started to feel a LOT of pressure. DH kept telling me again to call the nurse so I finally did. She checked and I was 10 cm. She told me she'd call the Dr, but I already felt so much pressure and knew the baby was coming out. She told me not to push and just breathe. That was so difficult. So the Dr finally came in and quickly got her "catching gear" on. LOL It REALLY hurt at that point....she said the head was right there and the baby had a lot of hair. So they had me start pushing........as weak as I was at that point, I was trying as hard as I could to get the baby out. It was so intense. I was shaking so badly at that point. Then I heard them say the head was out, and they were suctioning the mouth and nose. I knew only a couple more pushes and the baby would be out. Then suddenly I felt the whole body come out, and I looked down, and I heard them say "THERE SHE IS"!! And they put her right up on my chest. OMG!!! She was PERFECT!!! I was crying and kissing her, and I couldn't believe she was finally here!! I looked at DH and he was smiling and laughing. Then I heard the baby cry. What a true miracle!! She was nice and pink and had a head of dark hair. They took her to clean her up and measure her and all that. I was completely exhausted but thrilled and happy beyond belief. She was 7 lbs, 9 oz and 19 3/4 in long. She is beautiful...... We are home now, and I am so tired!! But she is such a good baby, and so far things are going ok.