Yesterday was one hell of a bad day. I went for a walk yesterday morning and found that my car had had one of its windows broken. It was parked because I could no longer afford to drive it because I live off of SSD and my benefits have been going down while the cost of living has been going up. So because of the vandalized window I decided to junk my car for $50 (I paid $6,000 ten years ago for it.) I was so angry that after I sold my car I walked the 5 miles home and did not even feel the pain. A few hours after getting home the woman I had been seeing told me she just wanted to be friends! This cursed illness has robbed me of my health, employment opportunities, friends, car, and now a woman that I recently met and really liked! I am so emotionally numb now that I do not know what to think or do! I have decided to fight this illness come hell or high water! I will either overcome this illness to the highest extent possible or will die trying! I have been sick with this illness for 12 years and will not let this illness take one more thing from me! I do not even know why I am posting this now, other than I am a lost soul and looking for a sliver of hope to grasp onto.