I just wanted to see if I am alone here. I really feel like dealing with this has taken such a strong toll on me mentally. Between dealing with the doctors, family member and friends who think I'm crazy, trying to self treat and making myself worse because the doctors would not help has really taken its toll. I worked up until 2002 when I returned from Puerto Rico very sick. I have never been the same since. When I quit work I was determined to find out what was wrong from me. Prior to Puerto Rico, I was sick but always was able to deal with it even though I had a lot of Physical problems. After Puerto Rico I just got so much worse. I tried to go back to work but it never worked out. Now I am waiting on a ALJ hearing. But sometimes I wonder, because I have too much time to think. Just talking out loud, this whole thing is really getting to me. Plus the severe sleep deprevation is getting to me.