One of our members alerted me to this sad post on the Depression Board and I have copied it here. This woman, the deceased, and all the people left behind to grieve need our prayers. Thank you all and God bless you. Love, Mikie ********************************* zax (19) Please hear me out. 02/29/04 01:24 PM My name is Taryn Johnson, I am very emotional as I type this, and I appologise if I dont make sense. I am asking for help in understanding the suicide of my Fiance Zachary Timothy Nessler. Zach committed suicide on Februray 12th in his home by a self inflicted gunshot. His family and I were getting his finances in order when we came across a password book lying by his computer with the address to this message board and a login name and password. This has devastated us all beyond comprehension. Zach and I were going to be married a year from may. I dont understand this,my heart is broken, why would he do this to us, when we loved him so much? None of us were even aware that he was suicidal, much less even going through problems. We also found psychiatric medication under his bed,no one knew that he hurting, why didnt he tell us so that we could help him? Zach was such a gentle and kind person, he was soft spoken and affectionate, everyone who knew him loved him,why would he want to take his own life? There was no warning This is such a shock. all he left us was a note that said "Ive made a mess of it all. Im really sorry, I have to go Im sorry." Zach has a good job and a family and fiance that loved him. He was going back to college, because he wanted to get his degree. I cant understand why he would just throw it all away. I feel so helpless, and angry at him. At the same time I miss him so much, and would give anything to see his face one more time.