Today my husband told me that I should just forget about SSDI because as soon as the judge or anyone else sees me they will say that I look fine- even better than many other healthy people. He thinks that the waiting for this has been holding me back from trying to get better. Could be, but I deserve getting that because I have put into the system for 30 years and now I cannot work full time. He thinks that I should just work one or two days a week and just forget about the SSDI. I hired an attorney who feels that I should win but we never met face to face. I believe that my condition is such that it has changed my life from what it was but my dh (in a loving way) believes that I can be a stay at home person and just be happy and not worry about the money. What he doesn't realize though is that if I don't get the SSDI now, later when it is time for me to get ss - I will get very very little because I will not be paying into the system and also I would get no money for my son. I can't work full time because of an illness out of my control and therefore can't put money away for my son's college etc, but he feels that it is just life. Oh, this is very difficult. I stopped work in Dec 06 and receive 40% of my high 3 years of my salary which isn't bad but I think that I should also be getting SSDI even if it is offset (I would ony end up with about $600 after the offset and $700 for my son for 4 years) but darn it, I think that I am deserving of it!!! He thinks that I have stopped trying to get better while waiting to get approved. Maybe that is so, but what else should I do? I am awaiting the hearing and my attorney will of course attempt an on the record, but doubts it will happen, although the hearing should be scheduled by November. -Thanks for listening and if you have any thoughts, please feel free to post.