todays my day for results .I could use your prayers . Its sad when we are more afraid of no results then even any bad results.No one wants to be sick but its so hard to deal with health problems no one has an ansewer to. I have felt so much better sence being in the hospital. I have lost about 10 inchs of swelling around my stomach area.No more throwing up now. Even that sick flu achie feeling is gone on some days.So I figure they should know something if they helped me right? Anyhow my apointment is at 12 I feel like a little kid knowing this could be news that can change my life maybe I'll get well now.I think I can handle anything as long as its moving forward to better understand how I can help myself get better. maybe these are big hopes and it could be like all the other appointments .These doctors seem different or I hope they are.They helped my pain so maybe they can help my health questions to. Its a weird feeling I'm not scared at all even about maybe getting bad news .I have turn it over to God and I am in His Hands ,good bad or what ever, Together with God doesn't sound like a bad start to a plan for my future.I've lived my life always close to God and today is just another day I can confirm this. I want so bad to get healthy enough that I can do some type of awareness for Our Illness. I am thinking about going back to public speaking if I go into remission from my CFS.I have done alot of that about other things . I am thinking about putting together all the information and knowledge I have personally about these DD and start sending out some letters to see if I can talk to groups at clubs or churches.If I do that I would love for you all to know who I really am .No One special or famious just another face with this DD.But someone God has given alot of friends around the country so I will have a base to get started with net working the information. And if I am not well enought to do this I may just do it all on the computer from my home.But I am ,in the future going to do more for all of us on the topic of awareness. Prickels my dear you have inspired me! I have soooooo missed the days when I would have the pleasure of talking publicly about something I had a passion for.I love hearing the things you and others do on your own time and for our cause. Being a retired Military wife I have many friends across this nation and I think if I start a reachout for awareness I'll have many willing to help .I just need to put together things from our point of view as the people who have this DD.Many of you can help me with thouhts and ideas that should be put in a packet .I will also contact other means of research and study about FM/CFS to keep things informative and professional. I didn't mean to get on the soap box here .Sorry this is so long .I really just wanted to ask for your prayers about my appointment for today.I'll write more when I get Home.Thank you all so much for being there!