I called my chiropractor late Sunday afternoon. Rhuematologist has had me hanging for 2 months, since the first waiting for blood results, then after the blood results wanting a psych consult which still isn't scheduled. Still waiting for bone scan results...everyone is waiting and I'm sick and exhausted. When I asked my family doc to support me in taking STD, he said he would put down depression as the reason. I said that would cause me tremendous problems because of where and who I work for, please write medical reasons, there are plenty and if you have to list depression, make it secondary. He didnt feel he could do that. All weekend I thought how my boss, who pries for details but does nothing with the info except gossip, would be on the phone with this bit of news making an already difficult job become impossible. The impact long term on my work as well as medical disability appeared to me to be devastating. I explained the work consequences to my doctor, but he response was 'there's no shame in being depressed...' obviously out of touch with reality and how employers regard employees with mental health issues. What people say, what the law requires and what really happens are totally different. While I will actually be treating depression as well as the medical aspects of FM, that's my business, not my supervisor or my employer. I have to wonder why a doctor who says he is supporting me and sees me moving forward working on these things while trying to keep my job would undermine me, even after I explained the difficulties he would put me in by stating I have to be out because of depression rather than FM or IBS or all the other stuff I've been hosptilized for. If I was to lose my job all he would do is tell me its discrimination, go get a lawyer... Chiro is the only one who knows A-Z what I've been thru during the last 15 months. I asked him last night if he would fill out my disability forms. He said, Sure! come see me in the morning, no problem. No games, no agenda, no 'I want a consult', just wrote down all the degenerative disc, myofacial pain issues and faxed it all in. Gave me a hug and said Go take a walk, its a beautiful day outside... 3 months of peace and some time to heal.