I'm so tired of feeling like this all of the time. One of my biggest stress factors is my memory. I'm a teenager and I can't even remember if I've taken one of my meds on any given day. I get told to do things and five minutes later I've forgotten all about them; I can study for two hours for a test, but unless its the night before, or even just an hour before the test, I won't remember any of it. Everyone gets mad because I forget things, and they tell me that I'm faking it and that I'm just too lazy and I can't handle feeling like this anymore! My grades are slipping and I'm so stressed because I have to get good grades now for college since I had to pretty much drop out of school last year when I got sick. I just feel like no one understands me--it's so vastly different for a middle aged person to get FM or CFS, but I didn't know how hard it would be. Sometimes I'm in so much pain, and I'm so self conscious all of the time because the only med that actually helped my pain made me gain 40 lbs, and sometimes I want to go back on it just to get rid of the pain. I don't even feel like me anymore.