okay, i just need to vent. my migraines been increasingly worse, and unfortunately i had the stupidity to go to a movie last saturday when i'd already felt HORRIBLE the entire day. i've lost about twenty lbs in just a few weeks. might be partly because i gained it all on the cymbalta and i'm not on it anymore, but i've been just so sick i can't even eat enough in a day. my appetites gone SO far down, i'm lucky if i'm even getting in 1000 calories a day. i haven't been able to find anything that works for the migraines, and it'll be SIX MONTHS before i can get into a juvenile neurologist. everyones pressuring me to try lexapro, because my depressions apparently gotten worse since i'm off the cymbalta, but i'm PETRIFIED of trying something else because i'm SO sensitive to meds, and i ALWAYS get sick off of them. furthermore, i've been sleeping HORRIBLY, even with the ambien. waking up at least five times a night, and sometimes not getting back to sleep..i'm ALWAYS tired, and i'm sleeping alot during the day now, too. oddly enough, the hallucinations have gotten worse. whenver i take ambien now i can COUNT on getting mind-blowingly scared of what i'll see. but i can't STOP the ambien, because then i don't sleep AT ALL. and my rheum. hasn't contacted my insurance company yet to get me approved for lunesta again. IN ADDITION to the hallucinations, i have NIGHTMARES about them. EVERY. SINGLE.NIGHT. it certaintly doesn't help my sleep, and i DON'T like waking up in the middle of the nigth scared that somethings gonna kill me. i'm just so hopeless about everything now, and i can't make up any of my classes, because my migraines too bad most of the time to DO anything during the day. i think the weather is making me sick, too. all it's been doing is raining. and i've been worse. i don't like it being real sunny, it hurts my eyes, but i don't like it raining either. as i told my doctor AND my mom in the doctors office, i don't CARE about the fibromyalgia right now, but the migraine is RUINING EVERYTHING. i didn't even know it was POSSIBLE to have one for this long. sorry, i just really needed to vent. everythings getting me completely stressed out which i'm sure isn't helping the FM. and the worst part is no one could possibly understand. -danielle.