Don't know why, but I feel so low thismorning. Started sobbing in bed. My brother has a guest staying here, another teenage guy, and he didn't even say anything to me to warn me he was comming over. I just woke up to find the guy still here the next day, and then I found out. Dad's out of town on business. I feel like there's no one to protect me. I don't do well unless I've got the house to myself for most of the day. Otherwise it's too stressful. And the sounds and the cooking smells and just having to talk to him and walk around him and think where he's going to be in the house before I go there. And I'm in my pajamas all this time, which is embarassing, since my pajamas have holes in them and don't hide my breasts well. I wish my brother had never come to stay with us. My other brother who was living here already said it was selfish of me to say that. He can get so moralizing with me sometimes. I couldn't sleep as much as usual and I got these pains in my legs which normally doesn't happen to me.