i have been lurking here for weeks now and finally got the courage to post. i have so many questions but thought i needed to start somewhere. right now i am more depressed that ever before. i can't take antidepressants because they make me feel terribly drugged and i can't function. in fact, my choles. meds even make me feel drugged and out of it, too. i think my doc is becoming frustrated with me and is ready to send me to the luney bin. between the chronic pain, the fatigue and the loss of friends, i don't know what else to do. i need some hope and encouragement from someone and my old friends just don't understand the word "fibro" i have read many posts and it makes me feel good to know that you all understand what it's like, but i can't shake the depression. it seems like we all just keep getting worse. is there any hope out there for us? i don't know what i would of done if i hadn't found this board. i hope to make many friends here, because i really need to know someone really cares.