My parents currently live about an hour away, which is just far enough that I barely see them, but at least I have still been able to see them some, and they have been able to help me a little with some things when I need help.....and though they still don't completely understand how sick I am, they do mostly get it. They have been wanting to move to a warmer climate for awhile, but I cannot tolerate the heat & it was looking like they were going to hang onto this house & buy a small one to spend winters away. Turns out they can't afford that & they sold their house & are moving to Florida in a couple of weeks. (I live in IL). They told me Monday they had to decide by today....I have not slept but a couple of hrs since Monday (& I normally sleep a lot). I am REALLY upset......live alone, have almost no one anymore, have spent the last 6 yrs losing one thing/person/ability/etc after the next, am barely managing to take care of the most basic needs, and now they are going to be too far away for me to see them. I can't travel, and I can never predict when I will be up for doing anything & even then it is very low key, for a very short time, and cannot be at my apt (bc my mom is allergic to my cat).....so realistically, if they were to come back to visit, even if they were here for a month (which is not likely), I might get to see them one time for a couple of hours & not be up for any more than that....it is entirely possible that they could come back and only stay a week & I would not see them at all becasue of my health. Plus, my dad was helping some financially here & there - he couldn't afford to help a ton, but it was making the difference between barely getting by and not.....well, he ruptured some disks in his back and has some more that are bulging and he is way past retirement age anyway, so he is not going to be working anymore, so money is going to be even more tight for him. So, I don't think he will be able to help me anymore & I cannot live on my disability alone - 90% of that goes to housing costs & I am already living in the cheapest place around & really need to move, because it is making me sicker (mold, MCS issues, etc). I have been trying to figure out a better situation for the last 4 1/2 yrs, though with no luck. So, now I am feeling completely trapped in this apt, and very, very alone, and not sure how I will be able to keep taking care of myself (physically or financially), becasue my health just keeps getting worse.......so depressed, nearly suicidal, and so exhausted, but can't sleep.......cannot deal with this.........trying to use my faith to hang on (& the fact that my pets need me), but am really not doing well. I know that I am blessed in that they do love me and they do mostly understand, but how does that help if they are so far away? Sorry if it sounds like I am overreacting or throwing a pity party or anything, but I truly cannot handle this.