me. I guess I am feeling sorry for myself. I am sitting here just totally boo-hooing. I am hurting like mad, both physically and mentally. How can I go on. I know ther are people much worse off than me. I guess it is hard to see out past my own atmosphere of torment. This disease is so not nice. If it were something that could be cut out of me or lanced or radiated, but it stays with me no matter where I am it is there too. Please pray for me that I can at least come to peace with it. If I must bear the physical pain, at least please pray that I have a good healthy mental state. I will pray that all of you will be safe and heal and feel good.