I have to go back to my thorasic surgeon on Wed. to determine the reason that I'm losing my voice. Is it from the radiation? Is it more cancer? Is it temporary, or is it permanent? I don't know what to think, so I'm trying to not think about it at all--- Worrying won't change the outcome. I've been taking my son's doggie out around midnight for a walk around the block. I use that quiet time to just talk to God while looking at the stars and try to get some perspective on this whole mess.