Wow, even as I type this, it almost sounds ridiculous. I mean, I am all too aware of how we struggle daily, often hourly, just to cope. So I thought I would attempt this and just see if there is anyone who is still able to get a really happy feeling from someone special or memory, anything to bring back or help them to relive some happier times. Because I do feel that things such as this go a long way towards our emotional healing. I don't want this to be (and sincerely hope it does not end up this way) to be all about me, but since I started the thread, I thought I would begin by posting something that never fails to give me cold chills of happiness. This past spring, my husband and I renewed our wedding vows for our 25th wedding anniversary. Some folks did not try to hide the fact that they thought it was silly, but I didn't care. We took the initial vows, such as "for better, for worse, in *sickness* and health," and my hubby has stuck by me and supported me through all this and I just felt like celebrating that fact...so we did! And what thrills me now is being able to be here, all by myself, the phone not ringing with calls from all those friends I use to have, everyone in the house gone to work and being able to pop in the video of the renewal and just watch it all over again. The *thrill* comes when my husband is saying his own hand-written vows to me. The look on his face of pure love, understanding and yes...pride, even after all these years and the toll that this DD has taken on me makes the hair on my arms stand up and my eyes well up with tears as I think "oh, how I love that man!" And then comes the part where he gently reaches down and strokes my face and wipes a tear of joy that is tricking down my cheek so tenderly. I am way too lucky and I know it! So that is my thrill this year. All other years I simply have to look at his face and I know I am so very blessed. And when he tells me that he's just said a prayer that my pain will be less tomorrow...it is just like a dream. I apologize if I sound as if I am boasting. I am well aware that others have not been as fortunate and for that, my heart aches. But I am just hoping that by starting this thread, we can all stop, even for just a moment, and think of what things we have been blessed with and what can still bring joy to our hearts. Because we need this to cope and get through each day. So please, don't be shy. Share what good things we still have and I think we will all feel better for having done so.