Is it just me but since this disease, cfids, I feel no joy or happiness even on very special occasions when I should. It just hit me this morning what a void I have inside me..No peace, joy or happiness.. Before the disease I never felt this way even when I was depressed and things were going bad in my life I still had some feeling in me. I just don't feel love, I know I love my children, husband and others but it doesn't feel like I do..Its a feeling of numbness.. There is no laughter in me or there are times I go thru the motions but the feeling is gone.. Yes, I am sure this is depression but is it also a part of this DD? I just want some peace, joy and happiness to go with the fatigue and pain..Is that possible? Just wondering if anyone can relate?