What was I thinking?

Discussion in 'Fibromyalgia Main Forum' started by ilovepink4, Apr 6, 2010.

  1. ilovepink4

    ilovepink4 Member

    I am typically homebound/bed bound with FM....Last week the weather was warm and dry and for whatever reason, I felt pretty good. I actually left my house 3 times! Once to eat Chinese, once to visit my son's reading class< and play hot potato :O) and watch their dance demonstration, and then have a nice lunch at a nice restaurant with my mom, sis, daughter that was home from college.......

    on Easter Sunday, my throat started to hurt.....by the next morning one of my tonsils had turned white all over one side....solid white!!! and i feel like someone put a blowtorch down my throat.....i am in agony.....not to mention the fever and aches....

    so, apparently my immune system isn't what it used to be! when my kids got sick, i would never catch it....but now, this is the second time this has happened this year, by the way, if I leave the house, I catch something....

    so, now even if I feel good enough to go out of the house, I better stay home so I don't get sick again!!!!?????

    oh, and i did go to the clinic yesterday....the throat culture came out negative so far but my throat looked so bad the doc put me on antibiotics....

    and the icing on the cake, is my daughter, with cerebral palsy, has just come down with a sore throat this morning, thanks to me....just what she doesn't need.....

    i guess i need to think things through before I go anywhere....and decide if it is worth the risk....
  2. Debra49659

    Debra49659 New Member

    I'm feeling you....while I am not home bound per say, I don't have many good days that I can enjoy outside of my home.

    Have you ever seen that saying "I have FM, but it doesn't have me"? I would love to believe that
    however, in my case....FM does indeed have me.

    FM has robbed me of many of life's moments. My daughters dance performances, holidays with family, movie night, the physical bond of husband and wife...well I could go on but.......

    Is it wrong to envy those that suffer with FM but on a lesser level? Because I do. Is it wrong to wonder why I was chosen to receive this DD?

    I hope I don't offend you by saying that I need to pray for strength everyday.

    Please don't blame yourself for your daughters sore throat, I just recently recovered from strep throat and I hadn't left the house...lol!

    Life is what we make if it, you are guilty of nothing. S**t happens....lol!

    I have now digressed to the point that I have know idea what I really wanted to share with you...so I will stop blabbering and send gentle hugs your way.

    Deb
  3. ilovepink4

    ilovepink4 Member

    Thanks ladies for your responses! Deb, what the h#ll getting strep without leaving the house??? Man, how did that happen? Someone must have carried it in!!! Maybe on your groceries or something?

    Jamin, I have had times where I have taken different vitamins and I can never stick with them for more than a few months. I hate swallowing so many big, stinky pills multiple times a day! And I didn't see any difference in my health....

    And here is a weird thing about me....and i wonder if this happens to other people.....Everytime I start taking a multi vitamin, I always get really sick within a week or two...like i will catch a cold or strep throat.....it happened in Feb when I started my multi vitamins and was planning on adding a few others, i got a sore throat and cold and it knocked me down for weeks!

    I have had a pretty decent immune system the entire time I have had FM......which always surprised me since I have kids and I would not catch their sicknesses even if they slept in my bed while they were sick.....

    now, i wonder if my immune system is going in the toilet since i have been sick twice in about 2 months....

    my son's teacher was so pleased to see me get to spend some time in the class that she went on and on about how I should come on a regular basis, anytime I am having a good day....and I would love to , I wanted to be a teacher....i come from a long line of teachers my husband is a supreintendent of our school district.....i love spending time with kids....it was painful to hear her say that because I know that it won't happen and now that I caught strep so easily, i am scared to be around a bunch of kiddies....

    Deb, i agree with the things you said....i would love to have mild fm....and the people with mild FM would love to not have it!!! :O) I am a crabby miserable beast much of the time....I detest what I have become....I hate the emotional up and down of this....the teasing of a few good days, and then the slap of the good day or days ending....it is like you have to accept the diagnosis all over again.....

    today, the strep isn't any better and my throat hurts to swallow my spit even....the other tonsil is getting speckles of white on it and if it starts to hurt as bad as the first tonsil, i will toss myself out my window....

    i need a bath, clean sheets, and a toothbrush....I wish I had a nurse to help me....oh, and some food would be good, too....why is it when the mom is sick, no one lifts a finger? they might be surprised to find my decomposing body in the back bedroom after a week or so.......oh wait, the cats would probably start eating my face since I was too sick to feed them and no one else would think of it....i still have to take the dogs out, too....can the men in the room believe this???? I know you women can!!!!

    ok....my arms and hands ache too much to keep typing.....thank you Deb and Jamin for your moral support....Jamin, i will take the grapeseed extract into consideration....i know you really had good results with it....
  4. marw

    marw New Member

    I continuously read about thyroid being a part of Fibro or connected. Therefore I constantly have my thyroid levels checked--every test available--and parathyroids, also. They are always functioning completely normally according to tests. Never high nor low. Still, I went to an endocrinologist, who by simply feeling with her hand detected a lump. I had an ultra-sound which revealed several small lumps and this one rather large lump. I had a needle biopsey which showed abnormal cells. No one could ever decide if these cells were cancer or even pre-cancer and I went to several different specialists, including those recommended by Mayo. It was left up to me as to whether I wanted to keep my thyroid. I elected to keep it. This was several years ago, and I my Fibro diagnosis was several years before this problem with the Thyroid. What I do is to have an ultra-sound every year to see if the lump grows. So far it hasn't, and of course I get the blood tests every few months--all of the blood tests. (the condition is now being called Goiter.) My question is this: can a non-cancerous lump--or lumps--in the thyroid have any effect on the Fibro, even though they are not causing any difference in the output of the thyroid that can be detected with blood tests?

    I really, really hate to fool around with my thyroid (with either medication or surgery) unless I absolutely have to. When I was in my teens (am close to 70 now), my thyroid stopped working. My Mother (bless her!) refused to allow the recommended surgery to remove my thyroid insisting that they give it a while to see if it might start functioning again. In the meantime I took synthetic (or some type of) thyroid extract for a year. You know the saying: "my Mother was right?" Well, she was! It kicked back in, and worked perfectly until now. In fact, as far as I know, it still is.

    I just wondered if anyone has heard of Fibro being affected by Goiter orlother lump problelms in the thyroid?

    Thanks--marw

    P.S. Should I move this up to a separate post? Feel free to move it if you think it needs to be moved.
  5. hermitlady

    hermitlady Member

    "i need a bath, clean sheets, and a toothbrush....I wish I had a nurse to help me....oh, and some food would be good, too....why is it when the mom is sick, no one lifts a finger? they might be surprised to find my decomposing body in the back bedroom after a week or so.......oh wait, the cats would probably start eating my face since I was too sick to feed them and no one else would think of it....i still have to take the dogs out, too....can the men in the room believe this???? I know you women can!!!!"

    You took the words right out of my mouth! My sister and I always b!tch to each other about how nobody will ever take care of us when we're sick. She says that her tombstone will read, "See, I told you I was sick!" Then maybe they'll believe me... so true.

    I've had a bad cold/cough for a wk now and I can't seem to kick it. I went overboard and overdid it a couple of days in a row, and I'm still paying for it.

    I would probably drop dead of a heart attack if ANYONE picked up their dirty clothes, did dishes, laundry, vacuumed, etc, etc. I spent 2 hrs cleaning up the kitchen this evening...not one person put a single thing away for the last couple of days while I've been sick. I hate them.

    I go nuts when I tell someone to take care of the cats and dog stuff. They just zone out and don't feed anyone, never noticing the empty bowls or overflowing litter box poops. But do they forget to feed themselves??? No, but of course they won't make me anything unless I nag them....creeps.

    Please don't let yourself decompose alone, call me so I can come over and join you. I'll even bring my 5 cats.