Gosh I had an aweful nights rest...I had nightmares about various things bugging me (including friends who i thought were friends)then when I got up I realized that I am in such a foul mood today...theres things bothering me ,yes...but I can usually go thru the day without it affecting my mood like it is today... I took one look in the mirror and POW it reallys et me off. I look like hell today...at least I think I do...could be the mood. WHAT THE HECK IS WRONG WITH ME??? Everything is really bugging the heck out of me and irritating me. I also feel like crying my eyes out. Im angry, Im sad, I just feel plain YUCKY. Yesterday was a good day for Halloween although I was walking with people who I use to think were my so-called friends and well the whispering and the grouping away from me was bugging me a bit. Every time I went near them they would all break up the circle and stop talking. And YES it made me feel uncomfortable but I was happy it was halloween so at the momment it didnt bug me. I was with my hubby and even my exhubby (yes as much as I cant stand my exhubby we do get along and he does get along with my new hubby so no it wasnt stressful at all). I have a hubby who puts me on a pedistool, who loves me to detah and gives me all the affection in the world but lately I just feel myself pushing him and everyone else away from me. I cant stand what i have been seeing in the mirror lately and I guess thast what could be helping to set me off. Anyway, again, not sure whats wrong with me unless I have hit rock bottom emotionally again and I just havent realized it yet. Thanks for letting me vent. Im feeling a bit isolated and alone right now. I ahve to go to work and put on a fake happy face and get thru the next four hours there (thank god its only 4 hours). I just dont know what the heck is wrong with me.....its truly bugging me....and even more so, trying to figure out how to snap out of this. Im trying to focua on the beautiful weather, my wonderful hubby and positive things but boy oh boy are they hazy in sight right now. ANY IDEA HOW TO SNAP OUT OF THIS???? Its killing me! Maybe the stress has finally caught up...who knows!!! Again...thanks for letting me vent. This place is a god send. I love coming here and Im so greatful for everyone who has cared so much!