If you are a newbie and wonder what other people with fibro feel like, here is another story from another RemedyFind.com member - his name is Rick C. ............ After collapsing while mowing my lawn I was admitted to intensive care for 5 days in April of 2002. After being jabbed with everything and having an angiogram (to check my heart), I was discharged promptly and told to go home. I felt pain in every cell of my body and was so fatigued I was unable to get out of bed. This was my dramatic introduction to Fibromyalgia. Now, in March 2006 I am still plagued with the same pain and fatigue and have been to hell and back over recent years. I slowly lost my executive job, my six figure income, lost my self esteem, lost my day to day relationships, lost my place in society, and lost my health. I suffer (yes correct word) chronic pain, chronic fatigue, some depression, some anxiety, sleep apnea, poor sleep, blurred vision, muscle spasms/jerking movements, vague memory and cognitive skills..... I cannot be in the sun or surf (but live by the beach) cannot walk more than 5-10 min max without aggravated pain later. I love yoga stretching but everything physical hurts........ a lot. I am now disabled, mostly house bound (by choice), and deeply dependent on morphine & my partner. I have three beautiful young kids 3, 6 & 14 that keep me chugging along and suck that elusive smile out of me. Sound dramatic, sound self absorbed - you are correct on both counts, but without much exaggeration this is the state of my life. I have seen and still do see endless doctors and specialists who mostly shake their heads and go - “crap life but not much to do about it”. Rheumatologists have had me steroids and chemotherapy drugs. I have had a skin biopsy, muscle biopsy, xrays, cat scans, ekg, ultrasounds, several antidepressants, a handful of psychologists and psychiatrists (weird people), immunity & enzyme professors, sleep specialists, optometry specialists and various others 'experts'. I have had terminal diagnosis right through to prescribed "all you need to do is go for regular walks". I have a very good thorough and empathetic GP, and a world class pain and a world class immunologist (specialising in FM). I am on 12hr release morphine which controls the pain when I am sedentary, and an antidepressant to keep me calm and assist with down times. I use a CPAP machine at night but still sleep badly. I am still experimenting with various medications to try and extract more improvement. I have tried a bunch but none have offered sufficient benefit over the poor side effects. I love life but not my own, love my kids but cannot play with them much, love my partner but cannot get much beyond a 'carers' relationship. Life is not much fun. I keep looking for a chance to squeeze a laugh or fun from it..... but it’s a rare event. This all sounds and reads rather pathetic but that is the way it is. I have learned empathy for the disabled, less judgmental about all those 'lazy buggers' just putting it on, and strive for fun. End.