Thank those of you who responded to my post. It made me cry. I've been working for 23 years at the same company and only have two years till I early retire at 55. I didn't imagine myself going out this way. I thought that I'd have the obligatory farewell dinner and say a proper goodbye to everyone. What I have realized is that the people at work that I thought were my friends really weren't. When I fell at work and was out for five months, noone called, emailed or sent a card. I then realized that they were "pretend" friends. I've been so busy all these years working at a high pressure job with a lot of overtime and have two mentally ill kids to cope with that I haven't cultivated any real friendsl. I have two adult daughters who I thought would be there for me and they weren't either. I always thought that it was karma and that what I gave to them would come back to me. I'm so glad I came upon this website. It will do more to make me feell better than any RX's. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.